Ups and downs

So there have been a lot of ups and downs on my journey. But about a week ago I kinda had a revelation that "its not worth it". I started looking at food in a new light, although this weekend has been quite a test. I ate out yesterday with some friends and it was an emotional confusing day but I ate like 1/5 of my meal. I was proud of myself. Anyway, so back to my new outlook. I just wanna lose it and want to be sucecssful and feel better. So I just decided two things, one, I am going to try to eat salad EVERY DAY, two its just not worth it. My roommate offered me pizza and I just kept thinking, its not worth it. I went to WW last week and was sure that I had lost SOMETHING. I weighed in and Debbie told me that I had lost 5.2 pounds. YAY!!!!! I was so happy. I have had a few times where I have gained and lost a little. But its been a few steps back, but now I am moving forward. I am hoping that since I did good all week, that the few times this weekend that I ate something a little higher in points, I will still lose soemthing tomorrow. I will let you know how it goes. C-ya...