Monday Weight In

Ok, so I went Monday and weighed in. I lost .4, at least it was not a gain. I had just been to the gym and drank a bunch of water so I know that was just sitting inside me. Its been nice to be back at the gym, I missed it. I hate going alone becuase I often times want to use the machines but there are nothing but guys over there so its intimidating. So I just go run/walk 2 miles and head home. Oh well. I am hoping to see another loss next Monday. The next two Mondays the meeting is cancelled for the evening meetings because of the holidays. The 930 and 1230 meetings are still on so I am thinking about catching one of those. If anything just to weigh in. Or I might wait til the following week and catch a morning one. My next meeting will be 15 weeks so the one after that, I would like to be with my Monday night group when I reach 16 weeks. With Weight Watchers, you get a reward when you reach 16 weeks of membership. I was hoping that I would be at my 10% goal by 16 weeks but since I still have another 16 pounds to go, I dont thing that will happen in the next 2 weeks. I will sure try tho. Anywho... I will keep you all informed on how I am doing as soon as any new improvements happen. Take care and be healthy,
Chrissy

Weigh In Anxiety

For some reason, I am really scared for the weigh in tonight. I think I did ok. I ate good last week all week. Friday my grandma took me for lunch at the BBQ place. I had a pulled prok sandwhich and sweet potatoe fries. Then for dinner Friday night I had a little bit of pasta and a piece of Rosemary bread. Saturday I started out good with my fiber bar and water, but the brother I went in service with took us to the bakery and that raspberry danish was calling my name and I ate it. Then I went to a late lunch with some friends, I was a good girl, only ate a little til I was satisfied. For dinner my sister made this UBER yummy meal of ceaser salad, fruit salad, chicken, red potatoes, and rolls. The whole thing ended up being 12 points which was awesome!!! But the dessert had to be a lot more than that. My grandma made Hot Fudge Squares, they are so yummy! Sunday I did ok, ate the rest of my lunch from Saturday for brunch and then ate a small amount of pasta last night. So I am anxious to see how I did this week. I feel good and am going to keep a positive attitude about it. Will let you know tomorrow how I did... Ta ta,
~Chrissy

Ups and downs

So there have been a lot of ups and downs on my journey. But about a week ago I kinda had a revelation that "its not worth it". I started looking at food in a new light, although this weekend has been quite a test. I ate out yesterday with some friends and it was an emotional confusing day but I ate like 1/5 of my meal. I was proud of myself. Anyway, so back to my new outlook. I just wanna lose it and want to be sucecssful and feel better. So I just decided two things, one, I am going to try to eat salad EVERY DAY, two its just not worth it. My roommate offered me pizza and I just kept thinking, its not worth it. I went to WW last week and was sure that I had lost SOMETHING. I weighed in and Debbie told me that I had lost 5.2 pounds. YAY!!!!! I was so happy. I have had a few times where I have gained and lost a little. But its been a few steps back, but now I am moving forward. I am hoping that since I did good all week, that the few times this weekend that I ate something a little higher in points, I will still lose soemthing tomorrow. I will let you know how it goes. C-ya...

Monday Weight In

Ok so last night was the Weight Watchers meeting. I still felt like I hadnt lost anything. I guess just discouragement. I felt fat. But I tried to keep it positive. I went up and Steph weighed me. I lost .2, yes, there is a period in front of that 2. But at least it was not a gain. It was still a loss. But I dont want to see that small number again next week so I have been workin it at the gym. I went yesterday morning and did a mile and a half, last night I did a mile and a half and this morning, since I woke up late, only did a mile. I am planning on going tonight and doing two miles. I am going to try and get my friend to go with me, she has a membership but never goes. I have been encouraging her to go. I know she hates going in the mornings but if I can get her to go at night, hey, at least she will be going. So I left the meeting, stopped at Jack in the Box and got a Chicken Fajita Pita, that thing is so good and healthy tasting. I went to bookstudy and didnt have a relapse with the migraine like I had the last two weeks. So I am thinking it was just a fluke that it happened two weeks in a row. This morning I am very full of energy. I always am when I get to the gym in the morning. I am planning on getting there every morning this week. Usually when I get to the gym in the morning I am full of energy all day, but yesterday around 2pm I got sooooooo drowsy. So around 330, when I just couldnt take it anymore, I closed my office door, layed my blanket on the floor and took a 15 minute power nap. I think I am going to start doing that every day. Maybe I can get my body trained for that 15 minutes of rest. After I did that, I had SO much energy the rest of the day. I got a pillow ready this morning to bring with me to work and leave here, but I forgot it. So, today I will have to use my sweater as a pillow. That little nap will help me make it through the rest of the day especially since I am working a lot of overtime and need that extra rest. Well my friends, hope you are all having a good week. Keep up the good work!!!
~Chrissy

Back in the saddle again

So its been a couple weeks since I updated. I have been doing ok. Last week I was ready to update even tho I had gained 2 lbs. But Tuesday night I just had a little breakdown. Apparently the gain bothered me more than I knew. Everyone was trying to be encouraging, "Oh its probably muscle" but I just figured out that it was my vacation catching up with me. Then the more I thought about it, I never eat before I go to the Weight Watchers meeting but last Monday I bbq'd hamburgers and ate it just before I walked out the door. So it was just sitting there in my stomach NOT digested but solid in my body. So tonight I am NOT going to eat before the meeting so that I can get an accurate weight. So it was kind of a hard week for me. The last two Monday nights I have come down with a bad migraine. I get depressed when I am sick. So that kinda kicked the week off to a bad start. I hadnt been to the gym since the Monday before so for a little over a week I hadnt gone. But Wednesday morning I made myself get up and go. It felt good. I hurt after but it was a good hurt. The rest of the week I tried to have a better attitude. I went to the gym again Thursday. Friday morning I didnt go cause me, Alena and Elizabeth were planning to hike Cowles Mountain. But I came home from work, walked in the door, said "Hi" to my roommate, walked straight into my room and fell asleep. It had been such a hard week emotionally, mentally and physically. I slept for a few hours since Elizabeth and Alena were not getting off on time. It was too dark to hike so we just stayed in and watched some shows I had recorded throughout the week.

Saturday morning was a nice treat. I woke up to rain and wind. It has not done that in about 6+ months. It was cold out, stayed in my pj's and watched some tv. Did lots of laundry. Was really in the mood to bake but dont like to do that alone. So I just got caught up on all my shows from the previous week and did laundry. Saturday night me, Alena, Eric, Elizabeth & Barry went to Shalespear's Pub, had dinner and drinks and then we to the National Comedy Theater. It was so much fun and we all lauhged really hard. Came home and was bored outta my mind so I watched some TV and went to bed about midnight.

Sunday I slept in til 10 and let me tell you, that is REALLY sleeping in for me. I am usually up by 645-700 on a non gym day and on a gym day I am up between 500-530am. So 10am is late for me. But it was nice, I was feeling poopy so I just got up, layed on the couch, did some cleaning, killing of ants and then took a shower... where I proceeded to fall. I banged up my kneecap pretty bad, it really hurts. I couldnt believe I did that, I just lost my footing. All I could think of was "Help, I've Falled and Cant Get Up!!!" I slammed my shoulder against the tile wall, my hip and my knee agains the bottom of the tub. Then slid and whacked my knee on the side of the tub. Grrr... I got out and put ice on it for a while and relaxed on the couch. Then last night we went to meeting and then out to dinner after, there were 18 of us that went. At first it was just going to be my roommate, her sister and my cousin, but then my sister and brother in law came and then Rachel told me that we were invited to go to Friday's for dinner with a group. So we went there. It was a lot of fun. Friday's isnt in the Weight Watchers Eating Out Guide so my cousin and I split a meal. We did the three course for $16.99 and had Jack Daniel's Chicken, Shrimp, potatoes and veggies. It came with an appetizer which we got the green bean fries. Then it came with a dessert, we got the mousse in the shot glass, so it was a nice tiny dessert, just enough actually.

So today, I had a Weight Watchers Carmel Apple muffin. Its a new flavor I guess, couldnt even find it on eTools. It was so good. Then about a half an hour ago I had a 100 calorie pack of the kettle korn, soo good!!! Tonight is Weight Watchers. I am going to go into it with a good attitude, stay positive and we will see what the numbers are. Until tomorrow.....
Chrissy

Ok, I am back...

Hello all again... Well I am back from Yosemite, what a trip that was. I had such a blast!!! Cannot wait for next year. I have decided that one of my goals is to hike Half Dome next year. In a year, I should have lost a good amount of weight and in a position to do so.

Anyway, onto more important things. I had my weigh in on Monday at the meeting. I was a little nervous since I didnt count any points on my trip. And I ate some things that were not the best for me. I mean I know I can eat anything, but I had like 3 s'mores on the trip, carne asada, carnitas, eggs, potatoes, all kinds of yummy stuff. But the mornings that I had a big breakfast, I tried to be good the rest of the day and the days that I knew we were going to have a big dinner, I ate a fiber bar for breakfast and little snacks all day. So I thought I did ok, but was still nervous. So I went to the meeting on Monday, another 3.8 pounds lost, so that brings my total as you can see above and over to the right of the screen to 13 pounds. I have to say tho that I did do a lot of walking/hiking there so I did earn some extra activity points. Its nice that we are watching The Biggest Loser at the same time, its very motivating.

I have been back at the gym again, only once since I got back from my trip. I went Monday morning, all excited to be back in the swing of things and home. Saturday night was a bad night. When we got home Saturday night I was so excited to see Tad (my kitty) and glad to be home. We ate dinner and watched The Office, which was awesome!!! But when I went to bed, I just got this sadness and lonliness that came over me and over took my every thought and emotion. I just started crying my eyes out. I dont know what was wrong with me, I was so lonely and depressed. I guess it was the fact that 1) I slept in the same tent with 2 other ppl for a week and now was going to sleep alone, 2) I felt so much peace when we were there and now I was back in this busy fast paced city that was full of chaos and bills and stupid people, 3) I was PMS'ing & 4) I was EXHAUSTED!!! I think I was feeling just right all things considered...

I am so tired of routine. I want to do something every month, have somethign to look forward to every month. Like this month we are going to Riverside and we have assembly. Next month we are going to Disneyland. December we are planning on going camping. I am just so tired of routine, and I want to meet some new people. I want to do more with the friends I already have. I just want to be more active. I am thinking of planning to hike Cowles Mountain at least once either every week or every other week, depending on how I am feeling. Then I would like to hike Stonewall Peak like once a month or every other month depending on what everybody's plans are like. I am just tired of getting up, going to work, coming home, going to bed. Its just boring and if I am going to be young and single, I am going to make the most of it and have FUN!!!

So I hope all of you are doing well and can find some kind of encouragement from my post. I know I have found encouragement from recounting my accomplishment... To those of you in this battle with me, I feel like this mountain I have been climbing for years has not just been turned into a grain of sand. I hope that you have the same success and thanks for being in this boat with me, I appreciate all your support. For those of you who are considering this, its one of the best decisions I have never made, stop holding back and just join with us, you wont regret it. For those of you who are skinny and healthy and dont need to lose weight, you suck! No wait, thats not encouraging, ok for those of you who are skinny, healthy and dont need to lose weight, congrats, it sucks having to lose it, its hard, keep up whatever you are doing... Have a great day everyone!!!

Oh yummy chocolate..

Thank goodness for Hershey's Sticks Dark Chocolate, only 1 point!!! So, feeling kinda tired today. I got up at 5:15 this morning and actually made it to the gym. I have not gone since I hurt my foot and once you get into that lull, its very hard to dig yourself out of it. But I knew that I would not be able to go back to sleep, once I am up, I am up. So I yelled at myself to get my butt off the bed and get to the gym. I basically pulled a Jullian on myself (Biggest Loser reference). So I got dressed and headed to the gym. I worked myself really hard this morning. I started off with a slow walk, then faster, added an incline, then faster and faster, more incline til I got to the point where I was running at 5.0 on a 3.0 incline. I felt the burn, let me tell you... But at the same time I knew that I had done good. I took it a little easy on myself since its been a while and my body has to get back into the routine of going every morning like I had been. When I got to work I figured out how many activity points I earned, 5!!! I am not going to eat them tho. I am going to enjoy the fact that I have them available but use self control not to use them. I will, however, be using all my activity points when we are in Yosemite next week. I want S'mores!!! I am going to keep track of everything I eat so that when I get back into town I can enter everything on my eTools. I am sad that I am going to miss the Monday weigh in/meeting tho. I actually look forward to getting weighed in. Its so nice to finally find something that works after all these years. I was watching the Biggest Loser last night and there is a girl on there that has the same disease I have. She was not losing very much weight and I totally feel her pain. I hate this, but the only way to really get rid of it is by weight loss, talk about a catch 22. Well my day is almost over here at work. Elizabeth and I are going to go to the gym together after work tonight, I am really looking forward to it, even tho I really need to do laundry. I can always do that tomorrow night. So peoples have an awesome night and I will talk to you tomorrow sometime...

P.S. Here is a picture of where I will be on Saturday and for the entire week...

Monday Weigh In

Well here we are... its Monday again, I have never been so freaking excited to step on a scale in my life. At the same time I was a little nervous. I mean, I have been really good with my points, minus the occasional dip into the allowance, but thats why its there, right??? I think I was just psyching myself out. I mean if I gain, its not like I get kicked out of the weight losing club, I just have to work a little harder. I was skeptical when I started this program and after my first week I got on the scale and got ABSOLUTELY NO RESPONSE from the lady that was checking me in. Did I lose? Oh crap, did I stay the same?? Or worse, did I gain??? As she finished packing up the items I had purchased: starter kit, points calculator, monthly membership, she handed me back my WW registration card thing. As you already know, I walked away and almost fell over when I saw that I had lost 4.2 pounds. So I was hoping it would only get better... Well here we are:
"Please step onto the scale."
"AHHHHHHHHH, (intense moment...)"
"Oh, look at that, you lost 5 pounds. That brings you to a total of 9.2!"
I almost fell over again, I was so excited I was shaking. I have never had anything work like this before. Once again, it has motivated me to just 'keep on truckin' with the program. It's so encouraging to go to the meeting and have my cousin, her hubby, my best friend, her mom and now a sister from the Spanish congregation started tonight too. There were 5 of us sitting there in a row together. It's so wonderful to have such an awesome support group. And congrats to everyone that went to the meeting tonight in our group, we all lost something. Except for the two that started tonight, you have gained a support group of friends who love you and an awesome program that will do amazing things... Keep up the great work everyone, its so encouraging to see us all losing. Love you all,
Chrissy

A good day...

So today was a good day. Elizabeth & Barry came over , we had breakfast, watched The Biggest Loser and then studied our Watchtower. I made eggs and bacon and we had tortillas with this yummy salsa that ended up being 0 points. I didnt have lunch so before the meeting I had a Fiber One bar. On the WW website everyone was talking about these things. Then when my roommate and I went to Target yesterday, I found them. They are SUPER good and only 2 points per bar.

So we went to meeting and the talk was really good, it was on survivng this system if things. It was really encouraging. The Watchtower was on covetousness, really good subget since the society we live in is so materialistic. It was really encouraging with such good cousel for us in this day and age.

After meeting we were going to come home and make some Chicken Tikka Masala but a friend of ours called and said that they were going to go out to dinner and wanted to see if we wanted to go too. I asked the girls if they wanted to go, they asked where we would be going and the couple said Hooleys, this really great Irish Pub. I got nothing but screams so after a unanymous answer, we headed out to Rancho. I knew that I had only eaten like 13 points today, I still had 25 to go. So I decided to order what I want and eat it all cause I was starving. In the old days I probably would have ordered something like Fish and Chips or a steak but since I was being conscious of my points values, I ordered a BBQ chicken sandwhich. It was a grilled chicken breast with lettuce and tomato. It was quite yummy if I do say so myself. I even ate the fries which are like slices of potato. Oh man was it yummy. I ended up coming home and entering all my points online and found out that I still had 11 points to eat for the rest of the day. Yesterday I had bought some sugarfree ice cream and some yogurt, really low points values. So I decided to have a whole cup instead of a 1/2 cup which is the serving size. I am eating a cup of the Yogurt Blends Carmel Pralene Crunch, oh man is it good. I still have 5.5 points left but since tomorrow is weigh in, I think I will lay those 5.5 points to rest.

Speaking of a weigh in, I have never been so excited to be weighed. I am anxious to see what happened over the last week. After losing the first 4.2 pounds, I was so motivated to stick with the program. So we will see tomorrow how I did. Well gonna get back to the game, GO CHARGERS!!! Will let ya know tomorrow night how weigh in goes.

Alright, I'll give Weight Watchers a try...

So I joined Weight Watchers on Tuesday September 4th 2007. My cousin and her husband had started a week earlier and I expressed a want to join them. So when they were going to thier next meeting I wanted them to let me know so I could go too. They came over, whisked me away from my house and off we went. I got all registered and weighed. My starting weight: 307.2. I have been overweight my whole life, but never like I am now. I have tried for years to lose weight, everything from Redux/Phen Phen back in like 1994 to bunches of diets, even a personal trainer along with a meal plan. The results: NOTHING. Two years ago I was taken to the hospital with the symptoms of a heart attack. It ended up being a chest infection that had gone into the walls of my heart, thus mimicking a heart attack. At that time they did a cat scan to see what was going on. The doctor told me that they had found a lump. My first thought was breast cancer since cancer run in both my parents sides of the family. But he said that it was in my neck. I made an appointment to see my doctor who then ordered a ultrasound on my neck. Come to find out: I have 9 tumors in my next, thyroid tumors. After years of having my thyroid checked and having it be fine, here I am faced with tumors. The doctor told me that we were going to try to shrink them with medication rather than surgery. So for 2 years now I have been on meds to try to shrink them, its working, slowly but surely. In the meantime, now that things are starting to work, maybe that will afford me the opportunity to lose weight since the doc said that the tumors were preventing that. So here we are 2 years later and I started Weight Watchers. I started counting my points on Wedesday the 5th and from the 5th to the 10th, which was a Monday, the regular nights for my meetings, I lost 4.2 pounds. I was so excited that I almost fell out of my chair. Wow, in less than a week 4.2 pounds??? Holy Cow!!! So it made me so happy to know that it actually worked. It also motivated me to continue with the program. So I will be updating at least weekly with my weight progress maybe some times will be daily. This is just something for me to put it out there so I can have accountability. I am allowed 38 points a day and will try to maintain, so far, so good. I actually find myself having to eat something at night to make up for the still outstanding points. This will be a new path in life for me. It will be quite a change. Possibly a challenge. But I can do this... I have to...