Going strong.... SPEEDBUMP

Ok, so I have been doing really good all week so far. Been counting all my points, eveything that goes into my mouth gets written down. But see I am an emotional eater. And oh boy are the emotions running strong... Yesterday I made a HUGE boo boo. Our million dollar donor called and had not received the blank invitations I had sent him in the mail. Oh yeah, cause I forgot to send them, even tho I had told his girl I did. I guess there were just so many things coming across our desk that I honestly thought I had sent them. I felt terrible. I had popped them in the mail yesterday so that they would get them today but she wanted them now. I had mailed her the last of my invitations so I looked around the office and was able to scrounge up the amount I needed. I jumped in the car and flew down the freeway heading from Santee to Pacific Beach. I felt horrible. I knew that my boss would be pissed. When I got back to the office, the donor had called my boss, who was on vacation and told her that he was not happy about what had happened. I thought to myself "Great, now I have the wrath of Lesa upon me tomorrow". So I worried about it all night. I woke up with a migraine this morning from it. But not only that, we had gotten a notice from the property management company at home saying that they were going to do inspections of all the apartments. I was freaking out cause a couple months ago they had sent a flyer to every apartment stating that there were no pets, no bbq's and any modifications that were to be done to the place i.e. hanging hardware, painting, etc... required written consent from the management. We have a cat, curtains hanging and a bbq out back, all things that were either ok'd by the previous manager or never mentioned to us. I was so worried that they were going to make us get rid of them all. The curtains offer warmth/coolness to my room, the cat is like my child and the bbq was a gift from my grandmother when we moved in. I dont want to have to get rid of any of them. So I came to work today, talked with my boss, mistakes happen she said. Too bad it was with the million dollar doner as compared to a board member, grrr. The inspection went fine, they checked all the blinds, smoke detectors and windows, we also gave them a list of things that have been needing to be fixed since we moved in over a year ago. They even saw the cat trying to make a run for the door and thought it was funny. Whew... I popped 3 Excedrine Migraine and got back to work. I studied my oral review on my lunch break so that I will be prepared for meeting tonight. I am feeling much better now. Enjoying the rest of my day. Its a quarter til 4 so I will be outta here in a little over an hour. Will go home and finish my oral review since the last few questions are material I dont have access to here at work and my lunch was over before I could get to them. Hope everyone is enjoying our 80 degree sunny weather! C-ya,
~Chrissy

Monday Weigh In

Ok, so call me a bad person, but I ditched WW last Monday. Two weeks ago I went and had this strong feeling I was going to lose, but the scale never lies and this time it told me I had gained 2.6. I was devastated. I had been soooooo good all week and really thought I was going to lose. I was at the point where I was so frustrated I was ready to just give up. But my sister gave me a pep talk that whooped my butt. Last week I didnt wanna go to the weigh in cause I just didnt wanna face the scale. So since I had the day off, me and a couple friends went to Disneyland for the day. A perfect way to get out of the meeting. Lol... So I started the week with D-land, where I didnt count points but did walk all over the place. Tuesday I was determined to start again but just didnt have the motivation when the day finally came. So I watched what I ate, ya watched it go right into my mouth. Last night I was all set to go the the gym before the meeting but I got out of work late and didnt make it. But I went to the meeting with a good attitude knowing that I was going to gain for my physical, emotional and mental downfall over the last few weeks that kept me inactive and eating things I ought not. But I got on the scale and found out that I lost 3.2 which brought me to 15.6 total loss. I was very happy about that and it motivated me to stay on it this time. I ate my exact points yesterday, didnt touch allowance. Today I have been on a good track, light yogurt, banana, fiber bar and 100 calorie blueberry muffin. I went to Target yesterday and bought a bunch of Smart Ones for work, I have them in the freezer here so that I can have lunches set. Well, I will keep you all updated as things keep progressing. Love you all,
~Chrissy

Yet again, its weigh in time

So Monday was my weigh in again. I had been telling myself all last week I just wanted 1.4 nothing more, nothing less. I wanted that 1.4 more than anything that I have ever wanted cause I knew that would put me at 15 pounds lost. My mom was joining that night so she could be apart of my celebration. I took off my heavy work clothes and put on my gym clothes, same outfit I had weighed in wearing the last 2 weeks. I went to the meeting and got in line, so nervous to step on that scale and so scared that it wouldnt show that 1.4 weightloss. I got up there and she got the number. Everything went through my head, "what did she see? did i lose? did I gain?" I was almost becoming overwhelmed when I told myself to breathe and go sit down with Heidi. She asked me how I did and I didnt wanna look. But I took a deep breath and slowly opened my booklet to reveal that I had LOST 1.4!!!!!! I was extatic! I was so proud of myself. I know that I can do this! Its mind over matter, which is easier said than done. This week I have stuck to plan really well. I have not been to the gym cause I have been struggling with a migraine. But Holly is joining the gym on Saturday so we are going to start going together, I hate going alone. My real test will come this weekend. I struggle with what I eat on the weekends. We always end up eating bad food. But Friday night my cousin is coming over and we are going to make dinner and hang out. I am going to go to Henry's and get a bunch of fruits and veggies. I need to make this change. I have to. I am going to be diabetic very soon if I dont. I am so greatful to have the love and support of my friends and family. I know that I can do this, I just need to set my mind to it. I watched that documentary "Supersize Me". Oh man, I never wanna eat fast food again. It was listing the things that can come from this type of lifestyle. What I am dealing with is bolded below. The study said:

"In the last 20-25 years there has been a double in overweight children which is responsile for:
*Hypertension
*Coronary Heart Disease
*Stroke
*Gall Bladder Disease (Had my Gall Bladder removed)
*Osteoarthritis
*Sleep Apnea (Slight version of this)
*Respiratory Problems
*Endonetrial Cancer
*Breast Cancer
*Prostate Cancer
*Colon Cancer
*Dyslipidemia
*Steatohepatitis
*Insulin Resistance (High Insulin levels are up to 99, mine is 103)
*Asthma
*Hyperaricemia
*Reproductive Hormone Abnormalities
*Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome
*Impaired Fertility
*Adult Onset Diabetes
Then he shared some scary statistics:
*1 of 3 children born in 2000 will have diabetes
*1 in 20 Americans have diabetes
*end*

I dont want any more than I already have. I dont want the cancers. I dont want diabetes. I dont want to die because I am overweight. So I am trying my HARDEST to look at life, food, exercise, everthing in a different way. I have GOT to lose the weight so that it doesnt kill me. I wanna be around a while...
~Chrissy