Yah yah

Ok, so I only lost .4 this week. But I had a bad weekend with food. So I deserved it. But I wanna give mad props to my roommate Rachel who threw down 8 pounds and to Heidi for dropping 2 pounds. Keep up the good work girls. Oooh and Alena lost 3.4 whoop-whoop, you go girl. Jessie lost 1.8 and Elizabeth lost 1.4. I am so proud of all of you. Oh and Nadia lost 4.4, heeeeyyyyyy. I am so proud of all my Weight Watchers buddies. Keep up the good work, we will be skinny hos in no time... Love, peace and chicken grease,
~Chrissy

Woo-hoo...

Ok, so I went to WW last night. I was convinced that I was going to gain. I was sick last week and you know how it is when you are sick, you dont wanna eat good, you just wanna eat what SOUNDS good. So I was ok with gaining a little. But when I got there, I weighed in and lost 2.2 pounds. I was stoked to say the least. Anyway, its been a busy day here at work with getting ready to kick off the ball to the board of directors tomorrow. So I need to get back to finishing my presentation and completing my packets of information for them. All the best to everyone!!! Love & kisses,
~Chrissy

Monday Weigh In

Ok, so tonight is the weigh in. I am not nervous, I just know that I gained... again... See last week I was sick with the flu Sunday night thru Wednesday. Then Thursday and Friday, I was so wiped out that I just didnt care. So I was in that funk, not wanting or caring what I ate. But I gained more motivation over the weekend, minus the Carne Asada Fries I ate Saturday night at a girlfriend's house. That same girlfriend is joining WW tonight. She did it in the past but since having two babies, she has gained her weight back. So now, with all the support, she wants to join again. I am so excited, just another avenue of support that I will have. But what I am MOST excited about is the fact that my roommate Rachel is going to join too!!! We have been encouraging her to join, but to tell it in her words: her heart just wasnt in it. So we just kept nudging her and finally she made the decision to join. She is going to start tonight. Last night I watched my recorded shows while going through all the snacks we have and putting them into baggies in the serving size stated and marking them with how many points they are. For instance, I took the box of Rosemary & Olive Oil Triscuts and put them into snack baggies in quantities of 6, that is the serving size, for 2 points each. I also took the bag of pretzels and put them into snack baggies in quantities of 39, the serving size as well. So you can choose to have 6 triscuts or 39 pretzels for 2 points, or both... Anyway, she came out of her room and saw me counting pretzels and decided to go through her cupboard and see how much things were. She was getting all excited. So I cannot wait to have her doing WW too. It will be so great having someone in the same house doing this with me. We can support each other. Anyway, gotta get back to work, I will let you know how the weigh in goes tonight. Til then...
~Chrissy

Funk

OMG, whats wrong with me? I am in this funk... I think its everything piled on top of me. I have been doing sooooo much better emotionally but now things are hitting me again. Money issues, health issues and stupid people are normal and usual. But on top of that I have been dealing with drama (which I dont like having in my life) and watching my CEO's wife die of cancer. Its been hard and I just have not been eating well. I have not even been wanting to try. The only thing I HAVE been wanting to do is get my butt to the gym, but I had the flu for the majority of this week. Yesterday and today I have just been so exhausted that I cant seem to stay awake, even when I am typing I am finding myself start to slowly close my eyes. I know for a fact that Weight Watchers works, I just need to get myself going mentally again. I am trying to get my roommate to do it with me, it would be so much easier if I had someone supporting me at home. I am glad that The Biggest Loser is on again cause I draw a lot of motivation from that show. My sister and I are going to try and do the Million Pound Match-Up thing they are doing. Maybe that will help to motivate me. Well, til next time... C-ya,
~Chrissy

Monday Weight In

Ok, so I went Monday and weighed in. I lost .4, at least it was not a gain. I had just been to the gym and drank a bunch of water so I know that was just sitting inside me. Its been nice to be back at the gym, I missed it. I hate going alone becuase I often times want to use the machines but there are nothing but guys over there so its intimidating. So I just go run/walk 2 miles and head home. Oh well. I am hoping to see another loss next Monday. The next two Mondays the meeting is cancelled for the evening meetings because of the holidays. The 930 and 1230 meetings are still on so I am thinking about catching one of those. If anything just to weigh in. Or I might wait til the following week and catch a morning one. My next meeting will be 15 weeks so the one after that, I would like to be with my Monday night group when I reach 16 weeks. With Weight Watchers, you get a reward when you reach 16 weeks of membership. I was hoping that I would be at my 10% goal by 16 weeks but since I still have another 16 pounds to go, I dont thing that will happen in the next 2 weeks. I will sure try tho. Anywho... I will keep you all informed on how I am doing as soon as any new improvements happen. Take care and be healthy,
Chrissy

Weigh In Anxiety

For some reason, I am really scared for the weigh in tonight. I think I did ok. I ate good last week all week. Friday my grandma took me for lunch at the BBQ place. I had a pulled prok sandwhich and sweet potatoe fries. Then for dinner Friday night I had a little bit of pasta and a piece of Rosemary bread. Saturday I started out good with my fiber bar and water, but the brother I went in service with took us to the bakery and that raspberry danish was calling my name and I ate it. Then I went to a late lunch with some friends, I was a good girl, only ate a little til I was satisfied. For dinner my sister made this UBER yummy meal of ceaser salad, fruit salad, chicken, red potatoes, and rolls. The whole thing ended up being 12 points which was awesome!!! But the dessert had to be a lot more than that. My grandma made Hot Fudge Squares, they are so yummy! Sunday I did ok, ate the rest of my lunch from Saturday for brunch and then ate a small amount of pasta last night. So I am anxious to see how I did this week. I feel good and am going to keep a positive attitude about it. Will let you know tomorrow how I did... Ta ta,
~Chrissy

Ups and downs

So there have been a lot of ups and downs on my journey. But about a week ago I kinda had a revelation that "its not worth it". I started looking at food in a new light, although this weekend has been quite a test. I ate out yesterday with some friends and it was an emotional confusing day but I ate like 1/5 of my meal. I was proud of myself. Anyway, so back to my new outlook. I just wanna lose it and want to be sucecssful and feel better. So I just decided two things, one, I am going to try to eat salad EVERY DAY, two its just not worth it. My roommate offered me pizza and I just kept thinking, its not worth it. I went to WW last week and was sure that I had lost SOMETHING. I weighed in and Debbie told me that I had lost 5.2 pounds. YAY!!!!! I was so happy. I have had a few times where I have gained and lost a little. But its been a few steps back, but now I am moving forward. I am hoping that since I did good all week, that the few times this weekend that I ate something a little higher in points, I will still lose soemthing tomorrow. I will let you know how it goes. C-ya...

Monday Weight In

Ok so last night was the Weight Watchers meeting. I still felt like I hadnt lost anything. I guess just discouragement. I felt fat. But I tried to keep it positive. I went up and Steph weighed me. I lost .2, yes, there is a period in front of that 2. But at least it was not a gain. It was still a loss. But I dont want to see that small number again next week so I have been workin it at the gym. I went yesterday morning and did a mile and a half, last night I did a mile and a half and this morning, since I woke up late, only did a mile. I am planning on going tonight and doing two miles. I am going to try and get my friend to go with me, she has a membership but never goes. I have been encouraging her to go. I know she hates going in the mornings but if I can get her to go at night, hey, at least she will be going. So I left the meeting, stopped at Jack in the Box and got a Chicken Fajita Pita, that thing is so good and healthy tasting. I went to bookstudy and didnt have a relapse with the migraine like I had the last two weeks. So I am thinking it was just a fluke that it happened two weeks in a row. This morning I am very full of energy. I always am when I get to the gym in the morning. I am planning on getting there every morning this week. Usually when I get to the gym in the morning I am full of energy all day, but yesterday around 2pm I got sooooooo drowsy. So around 330, when I just couldnt take it anymore, I closed my office door, layed my blanket on the floor and took a 15 minute power nap. I think I am going to start doing that every day. Maybe I can get my body trained for that 15 minutes of rest. After I did that, I had SO much energy the rest of the day. I got a pillow ready this morning to bring with me to work and leave here, but I forgot it. So, today I will have to use my sweater as a pillow. That little nap will help me make it through the rest of the day especially since I am working a lot of overtime and need that extra rest. Well my friends, hope you are all having a good week. Keep up the good work!!!
~Chrissy

Back in the saddle again

So its been a couple weeks since I updated. I have been doing ok. Last week I was ready to update even tho I had gained 2 lbs. But Tuesday night I just had a little breakdown. Apparently the gain bothered me more than I knew. Everyone was trying to be encouraging, "Oh its probably muscle" but I just figured out that it was my vacation catching up with me. Then the more I thought about it, I never eat before I go to the Weight Watchers meeting but last Monday I bbq'd hamburgers and ate it just before I walked out the door. So it was just sitting there in my stomach NOT digested but solid in my body. So tonight I am NOT going to eat before the meeting so that I can get an accurate weight. So it was kind of a hard week for me. The last two Monday nights I have come down with a bad migraine. I get depressed when I am sick. So that kinda kicked the week off to a bad start. I hadnt been to the gym since the Monday before so for a little over a week I hadnt gone. But Wednesday morning I made myself get up and go. It felt good. I hurt after but it was a good hurt. The rest of the week I tried to have a better attitude. I went to the gym again Thursday. Friday morning I didnt go cause me, Alena and Elizabeth were planning to hike Cowles Mountain. But I came home from work, walked in the door, said "Hi" to my roommate, walked straight into my room and fell asleep. It had been such a hard week emotionally, mentally and physically. I slept for a few hours since Elizabeth and Alena were not getting off on time. It was too dark to hike so we just stayed in and watched some shows I had recorded throughout the week.

Saturday morning was a nice treat. I woke up to rain and wind. It has not done that in about 6+ months. It was cold out, stayed in my pj's and watched some tv. Did lots of laundry. Was really in the mood to bake but dont like to do that alone. So I just got caught up on all my shows from the previous week and did laundry. Saturday night me, Alena, Eric, Elizabeth & Barry went to Shalespear's Pub, had dinner and drinks and then we to the National Comedy Theater. It was so much fun and we all lauhged really hard. Came home and was bored outta my mind so I watched some TV and went to bed about midnight.

Sunday I slept in til 10 and let me tell you, that is REALLY sleeping in for me. I am usually up by 645-700 on a non gym day and on a gym day I am up between 500-530am. So 10am is late for me. But it was nice, I was feeling poopy so I just got up, layed on the couch, did some cleaning, killing of ants and then took a shower... where I proceeded to fall. I banged up my kneecap pretty bad, it really hurts. I couldnt believe I did that, I just lost my footing. All I could think of was "Help, I've Falled and Cant Get Up!!!" I slammed my shoulder against the tile wall, my hip and my knee agains the bottom of the tub. Then slid and whacked my knee on the side of the tub. Grrr... I got out and put ice on it for a while and relaxed on the couch. Then last night we went to meeting and then out to dinner after, there were 18 of us that went. At first it was just going to be my roommate, her sister and my cousin, but then my sister and brother in law came and then Rachel told me that we were invited to go to Friday's for dinner with a group. So we went there. It was a lot of fun. Friday's isnt in the Weight Watchers Eating Out Guide so my cousin and I split a meal. We did the three course for $16.99 and had Jack Daniel's Chicken, Shrimp, potatoes and veggies. It came with an appetizer which we got the green bean fries. Then it came with a dessert, we got the mousse in the shot glass, so it was a nice tiny dessert, just enough actually.

So today, I had a Weight Watchers Carmel Apple muffin. Its a new flavor I guess, couldnt even find it on eTools. It was so good. Then about a half an hour ago I had a 100 calorie pack of the kettle korn, soo good!!! Tonight is Weight Watchers. I am going to go into it with a good attitude, stay positive and we will see what the numbers are. Until tomorrow.....
Chrissy

Ok, I am back...

Hello all again... Well I am back from Yosemite, what a trip that was. I had such a blast!!! Cannot wait for next year. I have decided that one of my goals is to hike Half Dome next year. In a year, I should have lost a good amount of weight and in a position to do so.

Anyway, onto more important things. I had my weigh in on Monday at the meeting. I was a little nervous since I didnt count any points on my trip. And I ate some things that were not the best for me. I mean I know I can eat anything, but I had like 3 s'mores on the trip, carne asada, carnitas, eggs, potatoes, all kinds of yummy stuff. But the mornings that I had a big breakfast, I tried to be good the rest of the day and the days that I knew we were going to have a big dinner, I ate a fiber bar for breakfast and little snacks all day. So I thought I did ok, but was still nervous. So I went to the meeting on Monday, another 3.8 pounds lost, so that brings my total as you can see above and over to the right of the screen to 13 pounds. I have to say tho that I did do a lot of walking/hiking there so I did earn some extra activity points. Its nice that we are watching The Biggest Loser at the same time, its very motivating.

I have been back at the gym again, only once since I got back from my trip. I went Monday morning, all excited to be back in the swing of things and home. Saturday night was a bad night. When we got home Saturday night I was so excited to see Tad (my kitty) and glad to be home. We ate dinner and watched The Office, which was awesome!!! But when I went to bed, I just got this sadness and lonliness that came over me and over took my every thought and emotion. I just started crying my eyes out. I dont know what was wrong with me, I was so lonely and depressed. I guess it was the fact that 1) I slept in the same tent with 2 other ppl for a week and now was going to sleep alone, 2) I felt so much peace when we were there and now I was back in this busy fast paced city that was full of chaos and bills and stupid people, 3) I was PMS'ing & 4) I was EXHAUSTED!!! I think I was feeling just right all things considered...

I am so tired of routine. I want to do something every month, have somethign to look forward to every month. Like this month we are going to Riverside and we have assembly. Next month we are going to Disneyland. December we are planning on going camping. I am just so tired of routine, and I want to meet some new people. I want to do more with the friends I already have. I just want to be more active. I am thinking of planning to hike Cowles Mountain at least once either every week or every other week, depending on how I am feeling. Then I would like to hike Stonewall Peak like once a month or every other month depending on what everybody's plans are like. I am just tired of getting up, going to work, coming home, going to bed. Its just boring and if I am going to be young and single, I am going to make the most of it and have FUN!!!

So I hope all of you are doing well and can find some kind of encouragement from my post. I know I have found encouragement from recounting my accomplishment... To those of you in this battle with me, I feel like this mountain I have been climbing for years has not just been turned into a grain of sand. I hope that you have the same success and thanks for being in this boat with me, I appreciate all your support. For those of you who are considering this, its one of the best decisions I have never made, stop holding back and just join with us, you wont regret it. For those of you who are skinny and healthy and dont need to lose weight, you suck! No wait, thats not encouraging, ok for those of you who are skinny, healthy and dont need to lose weight, congrats, it sucks having to lose it, its hard, keep up whatever you are doing... Have a great day everyone!!!